It is only now that my heart got broken, again.:'( And its only been like three years since my last relationship. And its only been a year since I fell in love again and seven months since i got into a relationship with the one i love. :'( how sad can it be? i know there are a lot of people out there who have experienced something more sad than what i've been going through. But just give me this instance to wallow in self-pity and depression. As what i have learned in occupational therapy and psychology, there is this process of loss and bereavement which is called DABDA - denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. This does not only apply to losing someone to death but also losing something or someone that is important to us. Someone who has been a part, a big part, of our life. I think, i was able to go through the first three processes in a breeze. During at which we (me and my partner) was talking, I was like saying, "this is not happening, this is not happening!" up to the point that i got angry i went home late at night with the remote possibility of me getting a ride since i was in the province. And the bargaining part came in where i was planning to "do everything i could" for us to get back together. But sadly, reality crept in and depression came. I realized i was alone, walking on the national road, waiting for a bus to come. It was like a movie wherein, i was able to ride a bus after a long walk on the dark road (it was 1130 in the evening with no road lights since it was a province), and cried myself to sleep in the bus not caring whether the other passengers were watching me or taking a pity on me or even disgusted! Because i was really crying - not even sobbing or whimpering but not bawling. i woke up on the bus when i was near my destination (in the city) and felt like i was a zombie getting down, riding a cab, opening the house, not even paying that much attention to my baby Fritz (a 2 y/o german shepherd), then lying on the bed didn't even know if i was asleep or half-awake. but the question is, when do i get to the last part - Acceptance?